The University of Tulsa is definitely where God wanted me to be. I remember my senior year of high school when I was trying to make my decisions about where to go to college. I had two full rides from two different universities, and then about 75% of TU paid for through financial aid. I was unaware of where to go, I really loved them all. That is when I left it up to God, and He clearly guided me to TU. I can't even put it into words what happened. I just remember journaling about it one night at youth group, and it was just plainly made clear to me--the Holy Spirit was definitely leading me and speaking to me in that moment.
I love love love love TU!
I am now in the graduate program at TU, for applied mathematics. This is my 2nd of 4 semester in the masters program (then comes the Phd.). I have the amazing opportunity to teach 3 classes at the university as well, as a part of my assistantship. The other day, I became incredibly overwhelmed. I was struggling with a certain homework assignment, and I just began to get really irritated. Not only was I struggling, but EVERYONE around me seemed to have finished it already. I was reminded of what my counselor told me as a freshman "Just do your best". One cannot do someone else's best. I.e., I cannot do the best of my colleagues, but only my best. MY best was given my God, and I should never try to replace MY best with someone else's best. It takes some people longer than others. That's what I am learning. Of course God always wants us to do our best on our schooling, work, family, etc. However, he never wants that to become an idol, like I have made in the past. At that moment, all of these thoughts came to me. I realized what I was doing, and I took a deep breath and tried a different route. I ended up finishing my homework assignment that I was struggling with...after getting some help from a professor. Never be too prideful to ask for help. Do I love that I am in some really challenging classes? No. But am I going to let that defeat me? No. I have to conscientiously choose, daily, to take it a step at a time, and to put as much work as possible into it and otherwise let everything fall into place. God is taking care of me, He is teaching me patience. He blesses me for allowing me the opportunity to go to such an amazing school. He blesses me in that He allows me to take classes of ALL kinds in the mathematics department, and clearly directs me towards which classes I should pursue at a higher level and which one's I should not.
Again, I can only do my best....not anyone else's best. And the same goes for you.<3