I apologize for the delay in posting. I did not intend to stop posting for the duration of my Facebook Fast (February-April) But it just happened to land that way. The Lord has been stirring some things in my heart lately, and I look forward to sharing that with you. But first...this...
I graduated this past weekend. Some of you may remember my post from January 23rd of this year---explaining my sudden decision to graduate with my Masters and not continue on with my PhD. As you can imagine, this weekend was a rollercoaster of emotions. I'm still getting used to the idea of "being done with school"...but I honestly think the Lord has a plan in all of this. After all, I don't think he pulled me out of the PhD program so that I would forever stop learning...
I graduated this past weekend. Some of you may remember my post from January 23rd of this year---explaining my sudden decision to graduate with my Masters and not continue on with my PhD. As you can imagine, this weekend was a rollercoaster of emotions. I'm still getting used to the idea of "being done with school"...but I honestly think the Lord has a plan in all of this. After all, I don't think he pulled me out of the PhD program so that I would forever stop learning...
The title of this blog post is deceiving...because it's not at all true.
My brother also graduated this past week with his Master of Science in Nursing (We both got our Master of Science this week!! ) As I sat through his graduation, I was so bummed when it came time to hood the PhD students. I dreamt of that moment for so long, and for whatever reason---the Lord has taken me off of that path. I do not regret obeying the Lord, and I am constantly being reassured that I made the right decision as I continue to seek Him as Lord. However, I am no less human, and still have feelings. For a person who doesn't like change, being told that I will not remain in school for the next 4 years but will instead be thrown into the working world immediately without much preparation is a little scary. Okay, a lot of scary. However, the Lord has been speaking to me this week. In a weird way. In a way that I know a little of what He is trying to tell me, but not all of it. (Isn't that how He always works?!?). The main point is: I will never stop having the desire to learn. I have been in a learning institution for the past 19 years of my life. It is something I CHOSE to continue, and still desire to continue. I am learning that just because the Lord doesn't have the PhD plan for me right now, that maybe someday He will. Or maybe right now he wants me to pursue other interests.
My brother also graduated this past week with his Master of Science in Nursing (We both got our Master of Science this week!! ) As I sat through his graduation, I was so bummed when it came time to hood the PhD students. I dreamt of that moment for so long, and for whatever reason---the Lord has taken me off of that path. I do not regret obeying the Lord, and I am constantly being reassured that I made the right decision as I continue to seek Him as Lord. However, I am no less human, and still have feelings. For a person who doesn't like change, being told that I will not remain in school for the next 4 years but will instead be thrown into the working world immediately without much preparation is a little scary. Okay, a lot of scary. However, the Lord has been speaking to me this week. In a weird way. In a way that I know a little of what He is trying to tell me, but not all of it. (Isn't that how He always works?!?). The main point is: I will never stop having the desire to learn. I have been in a learning institution for the past 19 years of my life. It is something I CHOSE to continue, and still desire to continue. I am learning that just because the Lord doesn't have the PhD plan for me right now, that maybe someday He will. Or maybe right now he wants me to pursue other interests.
One of the reasons I felt the Lord leading me to stray away from the PhD path was to provide more for my family. When I say family, I mean AJ and myself. I will have more time to draw, to tutor, to teach, etc. However, I do feel the Lord guiding me to begin a journey of some other kind. I'm just not sure yet. I have talked to my precious husband about this, and gave him some ideas of what I think the Lord is trying to get me to do, but I don't want to post it for the world to see until I fully figure out what that is. What I can say is, the learning process is not over for me. I don't think any of us should ever desire to stop learning. I know my brother will be working in a field in which he will never stop learning. There will always be an opportunity to learn on the job. Just because you are not paying money to attend an institution, doesn't mean that you can't learn. There are other ways to learn. From others, from reading, from the television, etc. Learning is important, and the Lord has placed it on my heart to always be in a position of a student--learning from those wiser than me.
We will see where this journey takes me...and once I figure out what that journey is...I will share with you all.
XoXo
We will see where this journey takes me...and once I figure out what that journey is...I will share with you all.
XoXo